Soon after seeing myself “defeated” by myself, I realized that I’ve been a dreamer more than a person who’s trying to be more successful than the others (there’s a shorter phrase for that, but I’ve forgotten it when writing this post… words like “warrior”, “winner”, and “successor” were floating in my mind for this).
Every time I found my assignment’s or project’s workloads were lower than the others, I found myself seeking for the rest of those whose workloads were way much lower than me, and compete with them instead. Instead of aiming for the top like I’d planned, I aimed for the normal. Which is another explanation of my current laziness.
I guess, everyone has got this sort of weakness like I do, it sure will take a long time to solve this problem… my problem…
Well, I’m just gonna say the same thing I told my friend Keen every end of a semester, I’m gonna be more hardworking next time!
